Tuesday, July 7, 2009

The space between

Another change, another destination, another phase…The fall of WAMU is now creating new opportunities and new directions in my destiny… East Coast and Bay Areas employment opportunities are calling my name… Decision, cross-road, destiny…The little girl in me is frightened with the changes around me. The engineer, survivor in me said “Toughen up kid here come the ride of your life, again”. Five wonderful years in the Emerald City and my heart is just now taking roots… I love Seattle but is it meant to be? I am looking for sign and maybe I am looking too hard. But I know this for a fact; it doesn’t matter where I go… I will carry you with me… your kind heart, your friendship, and the wisdom that you have shared with me…

Now let's see where the wind of change will take you, me…

The space between, where I can’t see the horizon
Where the past hasn’t gone away completely and the future hasn’t revealed itself
The space between, where my heart resides and my head resists
Where logic dictates my actions but the pain is hard to miss
Where instinct and rationale raised war on the battle field of choice
The space between, feels like the door is closing and I am hanging on by a thread
Another phase is coming and my world is still enclosed within past memories instead
Trust, faith; believe in the universal truth, do good and do well
But well and good cost a soul and some heartbreak
Cost a lifetime of searching and growing, cost lots of tears and strength to hang on
Cost a heart and dreams of a little girl, brown eyed girl
Balls of steel, iron will, dead on focus
The weight of the world or the weight of my own choices
Square shoulders, head held high; it is just another phase?
Revolving doors, why can’t I stand still?


Anonymous said...

I hope you stay, but understand if you must go away.

You have to keep growing.

Anonymous said...

From what I know of you which strangely seems like allot give how long I've really known you, you've always lived life to the fullest! The coworkers, friends and handsome strangers you meet on the street will be lucky to have you wherever you end up!

Anonymous said...

It is good to take root too if you feel tired and Seattle give you peace , love, and rest. If you still have energy to fly then move on one more time with excitement. Go or stay this time not for promotion or need to have more money but for your heart; where the little girl/talented woman can find peace, and rest and love. Do this time for your happiness and not anything else. VM, you are absolutely talented, opportunity will find you wherever you are. Have peace knowing that you make opportunity with your hard working attitude, gorgeous personality and appearance, and of course your intelligent head.

Little White Cloud said...

The final verdict is I can't pull the trigger. I flew down on company's dime for an interview in Bay Area on Friday. I got an offer and break down in tears... I can't and don't want to leave Seattle. Come shine or come rain, I am staying with you Seattle! This is where my heart resides. I tried to leave but I can't....

Anonymous said...

Very, Very happy to hear you are staying! I love a woman with commitment. A trustworthy woman of heart and mind, and beauty.

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