For just one second

For just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Give me your heart so I can love again
Give me your hand so I can reach
beyond the limits of myself
Lift up my dreams and give me wings
Give me a chance
To see the way you have seen all alone
So I can feel what I have been missing
Million years could go by and I would still be blind
For just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Give me your heart so I can feel again

Maintain inner balance continue to be a daily struggle. The struggle to be real, to be centered, to be me, have I left a place for others? To sway and not crack; malleable but not manipulatable. The willingness to move off dead center, to move and take my center with me.

TRUTH

Love, lost, illusion, pain, trust, hope, faith, joy, truth

What does Truth look like God?
How do I know when Truth smiles upon me?
Will Truth come quietly in the night and covers me with peaceful warm embrace
Or shakes me up and thrashes me around until I shed my old self and wake up anew
Is Truth fair, beautiful, and sparkle like a star? Is Truth the singing bird that bathed in the fountain every morning?
Or the lightning that struck last evening, did Truth came loud and angry because we didn’t listen carefully?
Is Truth presence in all things or only in something, is Truth righteous or forgiving?
Will you give me a sign when Truth comes knocking on my door
since I don’t know what Truth looks like, smells like, or sounds like
Dear God, can you let me know when I stand in the presence of Truth?
Thank you, God!

More about LOVE

There are so many different varieties of love, the love between parents and children, the love between siblings, between friends, compassionate love that can exist between complete strangers or for someone we never knew but whose story touches us in some way. There is the love of lovers which in of itself provides us with a plethora of sub groups within the frame of love. Between lovers there is physical love, spiritual love, emotional love, a love of shared things etc etc... I understand love intimately as much as a mortal can understand something that cannot be truly understood or conceived.

Love can be fleeting, prolonged or eternal it doesn't matter how long it lasts, all that matters is that you recognise it and embrace it for what it is at that very moment in time. People can place all sorts of guidelines or barriers around them to protect them from being hurt, but in the end all you are doing is making an obstacle course, a veritable boot camp, for love to find her way to your heart. Those barriers only serve to distance yourself from love. Embrace love in what ever form she arrives, don't question it, don't try and peer into the future to see if it is real, what is real anyway?

Every thing in life is impermanent, everything, that also includes the fact that nothing remains the same, everything including ourselves is constantly changing and evolving. So is love, it grows and expands it contracts and sometimes even disappears....love only does this because each of us grows and changes as we continue on our own personal journeys through our lives. And you know what?...maybe no one told you this, but love is not perfect, there is no perfect love, love is simply a reflection of our own ability and willingness to love another. That is it pure and simple...the love you are able to give to another person is only limited by the limitations you yourself place on it...your own experiences set your limitations...but here is the secret....you can redefine your limitations whenever you choose to. So you have been hurt in love before, badly...i get that...so have i, I have been hurt in spectacular fashion by previous lovers, so what, that is the past, I no longer live there and I will do my utmost each and every day to make sure I do not judge the past actions of others on the people i love in the present moment. I am not going to let my past be a limitation in the amount of love I am willing to receive into my life....and this blog is just such a beautiful perfect example of that.

Either way, I want you to know one thing that I am not so sure you hear very much...I love you, I love you for being you, all of you, I love you because I know that somewhere down our life journey we have a shared experience and that the only difference between me and you is the way we perceive that shared experience, that experience of being hurt when in love.

So I love you and I hope that your perception shifts and with it the suffering in your heart, whether you are aware of that suffering or not.

I hope you find love, unconditional love of yourself and then unconditional love of others.

Remember, it is easy to judge those you do not know, but it is hardest of all to judge the person you know most intimately....yourself. Be honest about who you are and you will see love inside of every person, every animal, every bird, everything that you come across.

Be honest and love will trail behind you wherever you go, touching all who you pass by and you will never need to seek love again for love will come looking for you, in the most unexpected of ways and in the most unexpected of places.
As for me, I choose to learn from the past but at the same time leave the experience in the past, not carry it with me as I walk into my future. I am open to love, the ups and downs...however I find that love is present and beautiful and always around me and that I never have to look for it, it finds me.

Something About Us - Daft Punk
It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there something I want to say
Something about us
There is a secret about us
That I love you

Paris, 9 Mai

Mes mains implorent dans la nuit noir. Elles s'élèvent et cherchent dans les ténèbres, dans le ne'ant, il doit bien y avoir une lumière au-delà de la nuit. - Carl Einstein

Musee D'Orsay

Sur toutes les fleurs
O malédiction, o mille fois malédiction?
Vous qui avez préparé tellement de morts
N'en avez-vous pas une pour moi ?
Wilhelm Lehmbruck - Janvier 1998

Musee Rodin

Paris, 8 Mai

6:28 pm Paris - A world away and feel right at home. I am at Fouquet restaurant on Avenue Des Champs Elysees. Bon appetit!

Why good music, the sunset, smile on your beloved face, nature, kind gesture, good sex and good food make you want to cry... Awww fois gras, frog legs, good wine and now good desert bring tears to my eyes...

Silent Thoughts

All my silent thoughts went on unspoken
Like clouds, like rain, like sand on a silken beach
All my silent thoughts went on unbroken
Like a distant moon I try to reach
Brown eyed girl with crystal teardrops
Like a tree in the rain sheds its memory
My silent thoughts hold the key to my heart
Silent smile on soft lips so lovely
All my silent thoughts lost in memory
Like dreams, like fantasy, like God’s creation
All my silent thoughts faded with history
Like air, like breath, lost in translation
My silent thoughts of just you and me
My world, my heart, my open sea

All we need is love

I learned still more about love by inquiring with strangers in elevator, woman at a bus stop, a gay close friend, homeless people, my immediate family, my friends, friend of friends.  I learned about love with so many so-called ordinary people who are living with great heart.  Their insight of love, which spring from their passionate and compassionate deeds, from their continued cultivation of feeling minds and thinking hearts – made my quest one of continual lesson.  Love for self, family, community, country, the world, earth described in so many different languages, different point of view boiled down to one fact.  Love is an art of giving; the art of giving your time, your care, your admiration, your attention, your talent, your trust, your affection, your acceptance and your commitment.

Eros
Xenia
Philia
Agape

Can You

Can you talk to me?
Can you hold my attention for more than 30 minutes.
Can you make me laugh falling out of my chair gasping for air.
Can you look into my eyes and see my desperate need for a hug.
Can you hold me close and feel my heart beat against yours and not get scared?
Can you see me in despair and disappointed in humanity and not judge my feelings.
Can you love me for who I am? All of me, fierce, vulnerable, sexy, sad, spiritual, vain, happy, joyful, giving, loving, beautiful, innocence.
Will you protect that part of me and allow me to believe in my own fantasy; where spirits are kind, giving, and loving.
Can you be yourself and allow me to me to be myself.
Can you watch me from across the room and be proud and loving without judging my presence.

Can you?

Vivaldi - Concerto op.3 no.6

What I hear...

Dance, dance

Fly, fly

Jump high into the sky

The wind is rushing by

Warm air bright sky

Dance, dance

Fly, fly

Taste, taste

Smile, smile

The sweetness of love

The happiness of being alive

The sacred breath

Taste, taste

Smile, smile

So in love with the Seattle's sky

Europe Itinerary

France
Learn to jaywalk like the locals. Take metro everywhere. Book a place near city center in Paris. Take train from Charles De Gaulle airport, and then transfer by metro to hotel. Get use to the French style coffee, aka espresso, and the 2 hour dinner. Note if a place says it closes at 6:00 PM, they start kicking people out at 5 PM.
Paris
1. Buy a 3-4 day museum pass
2. Check out Champs Elysees from Invalides metro stop, to the Arch de Triumphe. Stroll down Champs Elysees during dusk.
3. The Louvre is a must; Prado or the Rijksmuseum has better collection, but the Mona Lisa is there and the architecture supposes to be great.
4. Notre Dame (word it is not worth paying to go to the top of the tower, Seville's cathedral is much more impressive). Go across to the Latin Quarter & Jewish quarter. Eat a fallafel there
5. Musee D'Orsay
6. Versaille (plan an entire day for it, it's in a different zone for metro, need to take RER over). Check out the hall of mirrors and Japanese tourists. Stroll in the garden & Grand Canal. Go see Marie Antoinette's apartment
7. Eiffel Tower, naturally. Climb the stairs instead of taking the elevator; skip the café at top :-)
8. Check out market on/nearby Rue Cler. Order sausage & Saurkraut, Alsace style.
9. Gotta have Crepes with Nutella!
10. Take the metro (or walk) to the Opera House (close at 4). Phantom of the Opera based its set on it. Check out shopping in that area.
Nice
1. Take a leisure stroll along the beach; after all, it is the French Rivera
2. Check out the market in the morning; buy some baguette & sausage & cheese. Take a bus (1 euro) to Monacco. Watch the changing of the guard. Check out Grace Kelly's tomb at the royal chapel. Head over to Monte Carlo casino. Watch beautiful people out of a magazine page.
3. Buy cookies & sweets in Nice. Macaroons in Paris are overrated, but give it a try anyway.
Spain
General shopping: Go to Mercado Anglais for general shopping i.e. water & stuff in Spain. It's a big department store.
Food: Tapas. Order different tapas there. Try gambas (shrimp), preja (pig's ear), puplo (octopus), pimentos, and champinones (mushroom). Their escargot is good (and cheap) too. Compare differences between Catalan (Madrid) and Basque food. Try Paella in Madrid.
Madrid:
It's an old city and a block is tiny.
1. Museo Nacional Del Prado (better than the Louve). They got Dali.
2. Palacios Real de Madrid (Royal Palace, good comparison between Versaille. France dominated Europe in the 15th Century and Spain went on a declined).
3. Any Museo de Jamon (Museum of Ham) and enjoy wine & real Serrano Ham.
4. Enjoy tapas after siestas. Be adventurous on this.
5. Chocolateria San Gines after a nice stroll thru Plaza Mayor (don't eat at Plaza Mayor). Enjoy real churos (not the Disneyland kind) and hot chocolate.
6. Stroll & shop by Puerta Del Sol.
7. Bull fight should be in season.
Seville
1. Check out the Cathedral; Columbus is burried there; go next door to the royal palace.
2. Near the university, there's a govt/army building named Isabella. It was used in the movie "Lawrence of Arabia" as the fake Cairo.
3. Have some fried food. Check out the narrow streets and abundence of orange
Barcelona:
1. Check out La Boqueria (markt) and take in the color of different fruits & meats; swing on by Ramblas.
2. Check out the Gothic quarter (Barri Gotic) & its cathedral (not as impressive as Seville's cathedral)
3. Check out the Piscasso Museum
4. Check out Sagrada Familia (Temple of the Holy Family). Note the natural feel of the architecture by Gaudi. (In Barcelona, there's no famous plazas/roundabouts and cathedrals like the rest of Spain; also note the Octogon intersection--it allows horse carriage drive to see each other)
5. Check out the Gaudi house off Ramblas.
6. Go shopping...